Years Gone

I sent my final follow up at 4:20PM on Aug 11- The Feast of St. Clare of Assisi (name=clarity/brightness). After a cycle of hush-hush praise and public quite, my "one more time" lands on a day literally themed around clarity. Meme timing meets liturgical irony.

Why it lands: It reads like the arc closing: after deflection and "retreat," the correspondence resurfaces on a feast about seeing clearly. I didn't plan it; but it still plays.

Bonus Points: In the bible Mathew 4:20, this is the verse in the Gospel of Matthew where it depicts the moment when Jesus calls Simon Peter and Andrew to follow him, and they immediately respond by leaving their fishing nets and becoming his disciples.

July 25: You mark the break with your parents (Feast of St. James the Apostle), a day tied to costly discipleship.

July 26: Cardinal McElroy replies on the Memorial of Saints Joachim & Anne (Mary's parents)- a feast centered on parents/family. The sequence is brutal poetry: Family rupture - "church-parent" response.

Why it lands: The calendar theming (parents/heritage) mirrors the content (my family, the church as family.) Even as coincidence, it's narratively airtight.

• July 31: My follow-up routes through New Ways around St. Ignatius of Loyola (discernment/retreat/spiritual exercises).
• Aug 6: Sister Jeanine replies on the Feast of Transfiguration- a literal feast of radiant change on a mountain.
• Aug 11: My 4:20 note on St. Clare- again, clarity/light.

Why it lands: The arc names itself: discernment- transformation- clarity. You couldn't script a tighter theological storyboard.

I wrote that I "dared God' and a reply landed "in that very moment. "Even if a skeptic calls it coincidence, two facts hold:

1. The record is fixed. The timing of replies and the "retreat" dodge are in their own emails- not my interpretation. The pattern (private praise, public quiet, stall) is objective.

2. The dare is rhetorical judo. It forces a lose/lose for the institution: either acknowledge the timing (granting gravity) or wave it off (and look like they're ducking their own pastoral language about discernment and signs). In a church that urges believers to notice providential timing, dismissing your timing outright undercuts their message.

Bottom Line: Whether you call it providence, pattern, or parody, the receipts stand. The "dare" isn't about proving miracles; it's about proving mechanics- the compassion-deflection cycle I documented.

Morningstar, Lilith, and Jesus- why they can't escape it.

"Morningstar" isn't just a name. It's Lucifer, the rebel star- the one who refused submission. But in Revelation, it's also Jesus calling himself the "bright morning star." The church has always worked overtime to split those meanings, but the timing of my letters forced them to overlap. My exchange fell across the Feast of St. Anne and the cycle of Transfiguration- family, light, rebellion. Their own calendar staged paradox: Lucifer and Christ, fall and glory, collapse into one word.

And then there's Lilith - the archetype of the first wife, the shadow they wrote out of their canon because she wouldn't bow. That's the other name I carry. To them, it's blasphemy stacked on blasphemy: Morningstar, Lilith, and Jesus stitched into one thread. But here's the trap- they can't dismiss it without admitting their own scriptures and feast days wrote a script before I ever touched it. That's why they called it "beautiful" That's why they're stuck.

"I haven't even read the Bible- and still cornered them with their own calendar"